*sigh*

Hope everyone is doing well.. well better than i am anyway...

update on james..., yeah i was angry at him.. last tuesday??... never got to tell him that... though... though i did manage to tell mark on friday night while i was trying to sober up before bed. That call actually made me feel better.. made me realise that i was angry at him for stupid reasons and that i was being selfish; even if he did tell everything to my face, it would make no difference, and would likely to cause more drama. Though i should've have known.. mark and james share every single piece of info.. so by saturday james found out i was angry at him... so he rang me... im actually surprised he still had my number... he already de-friended me off facebook..., that was an awkward call.. since i was no longer angry at him and i just wanted to move on... by then i agreed that its probably best we're not friends anymore; i didnt want that, neither am i happy about it. What happened a few weeks ago is the second time its happened... obviously... being just friends is not working... and no-one wants it to happen for a 3rd time~~~
so *sigh* im over it~~~.... we'll still see each other around, im sure of it! but it'll be different~~~

well anyway.. friday was a general crap day... had a dream that my dad died... therefore.. i over slept.. so i missed my only lecture that day at 10am.. oh well =P... i can't learn anything off that lecturer anyway. I tried to switch my laptop.... -__-".. log in page wouldnt load... restarted...same... tried to boot it in safe mode....same... -______________-", yups my laptop died on meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....... took it to the uni IT shop~~~
so since... both jess and elaine had lectures all day.. i was stuck in the flat all day..alone... since... i wasnt in the mood to go out... watched my neighbour totoro.....
felt crap generally for the whole weekend, laptopless~~~.... though i did magane to buy a christmas tree and put it up!.. i know it sounds insanely early... but i only have 3 weeks of uni left!

SO Monday was disgusting... had labs... wanted to kill myself.. even more so than usual... the experiment made no sense.. and the stupid amplifier circuit is gayyyyyyyyy and the demonstrator had no idea what he was talking aboutttttttt.... grrrrrrr...... my value for plancks constant was wayyyyyyyyyy off.... oh well.. aslong as i pass this module i dont care if i get a high mark or not~~~ also i got my laptop back... you'd think i'd me happy about it.... BUT I'M NOT!!!

1).....i no longer have MS office
2) my formely partitioned hard drive is now one ugly thing

i was really not in the mood to deal with my disgusting laptop when i got home..... ¬____¬, basically what was wrong with my laptop was some fault in one of the software.. anyway.. they re-installed windows... and pretty crapily too... everything just feels and looks wrong!! >__< grrr...!!

so today~~~ got home and tried to sort this mess of a laptop out, my first plan was to reinstall windows myself... but my recovery disk wont boot up -___-".. i only wanted to do that to try and restore MS office.. but thats not working.... oh well.. not too fussed about that, more fussed about the partition. SO! while trying to partition my 147GB hard drive... the freakin' C drive refuses to be any smaller that 125GB which meant my D drive could only be 21GB!! GAH! when i first got the laptop it was already partitioned 50/50, so i know its possible!!!! so to google!! found out its a very common problem... cos Vista is gay and sucks balls!!! .... basically.. any solution involves a lot of geekery which im not in the right mind to attempt, though a simple solution was to defragment the C drive.. and u know what.. my laptop refuses to do it!!!... actually my laptop was issues doing anything that involves the administrator permission, even though I AM the administrator... it wont do it... -___-" so im not on good terms with my laptop.. i want it to die a horrible horrible death.....