eve eve

ahh i havent blogged since i got back to birmingham so here it is

well.. since im here and some of you already know... james and i have agreed to be just friends... i think..we've both forgiven each other... what for?... im not completely sure.. =P... we'll see what happens....

so got back to brummie land on the saturday 12th.. omg.. i was in such a rush, since i was the last one leaving the flat, i had to take out the rubbish and stuff, and i like called the taxi which i thought would take them like 10 minutes to come.. but they came in 5!! gah!! so i rushed to get out... and realised on the train.. that i forgot to take the cheese and bread out of the fridge -___-".. luckily there all in bags...and the fridge is still on.. hope we dont get a nasty surprise when we get back!

i actally hated being back in birmingham for the first couple of days.. all due to my mum... im allowed to relax properly!.. literally i've wrapped ALL the presents... my mum NEVER wraps chritsmas presents!! cos every year i wrap them!! cos i have to!! >_<... and she gives loads of jobs to do around the house yet still expect to study... hello!! its like.. she can see im studying yet she still asks me to do 101 things!! but its better now.. since i've already done most of the jobs that to be done now -__-"... oh and treats me as an atm.. seriously... i already leant her £200 from the last time i came back.. and guess what i had to do today?!.. i paid her freakin' car tax!! £125!! the logic behind this... shes really close into her overdraft where she would be fined.. whereas I don't get fined for using my overdraft or have any interest on it... so im even MORE into my overdraft!! luckily its christmas; a time for giving... and having many uncles and aunts is an advantage =P.

*sigh*
so far i've met up with vicky, kevin, luke, sarah(briefly), mush, nicola.... wheres the rest of you.. huh?!....

my bedroom is freaking colddddddddddd like i have the electic heater in there.. but its so big it makes little difference... i can't study in there!! tooooooooooo cold! ! and the spare room is also just as cold!!.. so today i've finally discovered.. the front dining/living room.. its warm and has a big table to put my crap on ^_^~~ shame i only just discovered it.. i barely go in this room!... but its good i have this place.. can finally be in a place im comfortable to study in. got 4 exams in january!... gahh so scareddddddddddddddddddd

my mum hasn't cut my hair yet... gots split ends -__-" and i want it thinnedddddddddddd.... probs get it cut before i leave.. shes been too busy -__-"

its christmas eve now... HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS ^__^~~~~

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i've been a lot more relaxed this past week ^_^~~

have just over a week till uni ends for christmas... i still.. have no urgency to want to go home... its makes me feel bad cos it makes it sound like everyone at home dont mean much, which isnt true!! and its like.. why i rarely ring home.. it never comes across my mind to call home..
i'm often referred to having a cold heart.. or a black heart... i know these people are joking and dont actually mean it, but i think it is true in some sense.. well... it appears that i have a cold heart anyway. I dont really know the truth myself =P

hmmm... the past few days i have been irritated my elaine... well.. shes hasnt done anything to me.. its just her behaviour; i find it annoying... shes like... "socially awkward"... like one example this week... her friend from her course is having a party today, so her friend invited her to the party; elaines response to this invitation.. was... basically " im free that night, but i dont know any of ur friends, so im not going to go"... -___-"..... whats the harm in meeting new people?!?!

also... she obviously doesnt like keith... its true that at home i moan that keith is annoying and that i dont like him... which honestly isn't true.. me and keith get along well, therefore we're friends. Its true that he takes "advantage" of our friendships as im always doing him favours, cos im GOOD friend. i think this why elaine has a negative view of him... keith has done nothing to elaine that im aware of. keith added her on FB sometime last year, she was surprised.. but this year she told me she de-friended him off FB.... i'm sorry but that was totally uncalled for... Keith has done nothing AT ALL to offend elaine personally... and has done nothing to deserve being defriended... i know this sounds silly.... but really.... she defriended him for no reason. oh and shes not very comfortable when he comes over.

oh and today... well we always try and eat together... so elaine and jess both finish lectures at 3.. i've finished lectures already... elaine is going to some churchy thing a 7.. so jess was like.. why dont we start cooking at 5 and eat around 5:30... and elaines "excuse" is.. its too rushed.. and that she'd rather eat by herself... O_O!!... seriously... theres like a 4 hour gap where we could easily cook, eat and have time to spare... *sigh*

theres been loads of weird anti-social elaine things.. but i cant remember them all...

oh! one of thems is like... cos she doesnt know many people on her course, *surprise surprise*, like one night the people on her course we're having a social... at the bar which is 1 minute away from our flat. she didnt go... its like.. this is a oppotunity to get to know the other people on ur course, u dont have to drink; just go and meet people!! yeah.. she doesnt go to any socials.... the only "socials" she goes to are churchy stuffs. oh and her friend is president of malaysian soc... so she joined this year... hasnt been to any events -__-".... i mean last year elaine said she would defiantly join malaysoc next year.... helllllllllllllllllllo.. u've joined.... but u havnt been to any eventsssssssssssssssssssss. *sigh*... i understand that she doesnt drink or enjoy clubbing or "going out".. or any kind of party im guessing.... BUT REALLY!!... develop some social skillllllllllllllssssssss

anyway i should stop bashin elaine and her antisocial-ness... shes lovely really... just has irritating qualities...

i gonna go do some work now...