Rwar!

if you're wondering.. i felt so much better after writing that last blog, so most of that stuff didnt bother me the day after, actually elaine has stopped txtin me everyday since i posted that =P.. ~~spooky~~... maybe shes stalking me =S!!

ahh.. u know i havent posted how much i hate chemistry this semester... which is odd since all of us in the PPPPP deeply loathe chemistry..

1) the structure of the chemistry lectures are STUPID! we're meant to have 2 chemistry modules in each semester. Unlike the physics lectures where each module has one lecturer and we have that lecturer and module for the whole semester, the chemistry department is messed up, so half the semester is one module and the other half is another module; ok.. fair enough.. but each module has like 2/3 lecturers!! so almost every 2 weeks we have a new lecturer!! which can be good.. but can be bad.

2) i've done most of the stuff before... so i dont listen much.... and recently found other things to do during lectures..eg... reading the newspaper..sleeping..or DS-ing..

3) SKELETAL DIAGRAMS!! omg... one of the lectures had printed notes for us , and we had to draw in the diagrams in the spaces.. -_______-"... so we basically drew a bunch of sticks for 2-3 weeks!! grr... drove us insaneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I HATE SKELETAL DIAGRAMS SO MUCH!!! and whats worst (not for me).. is that people on my course come from many different educational backgrounds.. so many of them havent been taught about skEletal diagrams and the lecturers never properly explained it to them..

4) MECHANISMS!! gahhh i hate them so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhh

5).. ok i basically hate chemistry!!.... i may possibly hate it more than biology... since i was smart enough to drop biology at the first possible moment. PHYSICS IS THE BEST! =P hahaha i know most of u are doing biology/chemistry related subjects... but they suck...

RWAR! enough about chemistry! well this semester has been very different to the last.. my timetable is more compact.. and it has gone by insanely fast! i mean its thursday already!! when i come back from easter break im gonna have 2 more weeks of lectures.. revision week and then 5 weeks of exams! i break up on the 12th June, might come home earlier than that~~

ahh~~ last weekend was very busy! i even had 3 pieces of hmwk that i would usually do over the weekend, but didnt get the chance.

WAHH! last Friday was.. -___-".. 3 hr chem prac in the morning.. we were the last ones in the lab!! grrr.. stupid melting points!! then lunch.. the PPPPP went to KFC... dunno why.. we dont usually go there. then it was our 3 hr physics prac, where we did diffraction with a laser beam, *sigh* in the end calculations we had to use radians, and not degrees!! grrr... and we were already running over, so yeah.. that didnt go so well. After physics i went to pizza hut, to meet up with andrew, chris and sylvia; we havent met up since before christmas! so it was good to see them again.. actually i see sylvia and andrew a lot since we're all in the engineering building at some point, and sylvia lives at uni halls too~~ oh and andrew hangs with my jap crew too~~~ =P after pizza hut we went to sylvias place, cos she lives in a student house so her room is massive~~ stayed till like 12, i was knackeredddddddddddd and i had a bbq the next day!

yeah so saturday we went to Bute Park to have a BBQ with cerys, mark, james and andrew. we had a disposable bbq that cerys had for a while.. and it took us ages to get it alight. luckily cerys and james are veggies so all our stuff was vegetarian so theres not much chance of getting food poisoning from undercooked veggie burgers =P Oh! and while we were at tescos buying food, we brought a coconut =P.. random.. but yeah we drank some of it.. smashed it...and ate a bit of it..
went back to cerys house and brough sushi on the way back, YOU KNOW WHAT! I'VE HAD SUSHI AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK FOR THE PAST 7 WEEKS!!.. just realised like 2 weeks ago =P.... havent had any sushi this week though.. going to wagamamas tomorrow.. but they dont sell sushi -__-". so we played cranium and jenga. i dunno if i was slightly drunk from the malibu.. or i was just normal me who was excited about the cranium play doh...

sunday went to cardiff bay with elaine and georgiana!, we didnt do much just walked around exploring the place cos we havent really explored the bay much. Went to a ice cream palour place, and then went to gourmet burger kitchen to eat...mmm... burger~~~. it was kinna windy and cold >__< last week had really nice weather!! this week.. not so nice.. coler..windier and wetter -__-" rwar.. so after that weekend i still had 3 pieces of hmwk to do... one on tuesday, wednesday and friday. the one due on tuesday was INTEGRATION!! THE HARD STUFF!! grr... yeah did on monday night took me 3-4 hours -_-".. mondays are horrible... 6 hours of lectures, so i was already knackered by the time i got home.
*sigh* i shouldnt really complain, my wrk load isnt that big.. and i can still mangaed to waste tons of time without realising.

OH! TOHOSHINKI- THE SECRET CODE ALBUM was released on the 25th! i've already downloaded it... on the 23rd.. i dunno how it got on the net that early.. but i've got it!.. i also pre-ordered it.. like ages ago... but it wont arrive till next week. Since its a jap album... it costs wayyyyyyy more than the mirotic albums... i mean i brought all 3 versions for around £30. RWAR! korea so cheapppppppppp. Japan is so expensive! i only brought version C of the secret code... which was the cheapest one (and has the poopyest cover cos dbsk arent on it -__-").. ..its £20!! i mean thats more than the cost of a CD here!! yeah version A is a CD &DVD which is like £37, version B comes with 2 CD..( the second CD is just a non-stop remix of a bunch of their songs) that costs £26. Version C basically comes with all the songs.. similar to how all the songs where on the version C of mirotic.

anyway! i'll stop talking about the insane price.. so yeah.. like i already have half the songs on the album already (similar to how i've already had half of the songs on T before it was out, i think they spend too much time in japan~~~) i think my favourite new song on there is TAXI.. another ballad, similar to love in the ice, bolero, doushite kimi...etc... I LOVE THEIR BALLADS SO MUCH!!! ^__^!! so im glad theres another.
9095 creeped me out at first, but its growing on me,
well basically i really like this album ^__^.. obviously =P haven't decided which is my favourite dbsk is yet... i really liked five in the black. i think mirotic is my favourite korean album... hmm..... wahh i need more time to think about it!!

lahhhhh i think i randomly ranted alot here.. so i should stop... but before i stop typing i wanna say this...

i think someone is my flat is.. smoking something.... my corridor has been smelling like "amsterdam" alot recently.. =P. funny thing is.. the corridor of the flat next to me smells of coconut. so on my walk from my room to the bathroom.. i smell amsterdam when i leave my room, then open the door to the nexy flat where it smells of coconut.... odd how coconut keeps coming up in this post....coconut at the park..malibu...stinky flats~~~

anyway! hope to see u lot soon!

byessssss~~~

Grrr... so unlike me!!

bleh so i feel a little pissed off/sad today... and i guess i just wanna write it down so i'll be able to sleep!

oh yeah today is rammys bday! happy birthday rammy!! so old!!

anyway.. i guess it started with this morning after physics and on our way to maths.. i got (another!!) text from elaine.. who i guess was already in maths.. asking if i was coming to maths.. and of course i was cos we were getting our results from our mid-term, and she should know by know that the physics crew are always late.. so she txted back telling me which room we were in... ok we had a room change.. but i already knew that!! i didnt ask for you to tell me!!
ok i guess u all think this is really trival... but i dunno i got the impression that i had no idea.. i mean.. i was with 5 other people!! ok ok this sounds really stupidddddddd, but elaine is starting to irritate me -__-".. like shes txts me pretty much everyday!! and they normal start with some thing like.. "what are u doing?" or "how are you?"..( omg i know i sound like such a prat moaning about this -__-).... BUT come on!! i see her like everydayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!! im fine pretty much everyday!! u dont need to ask me every day!!! and why does she need to know what im doing everday!! i mean she saw me at uni! *sigh* yeah.. im probably over reacting.. but it annoys me!.. and i guess shes bored and everything... but txting me everyday.... -__-"..... and i always reply cos im overly polite... even though i dont have much to say.. since i saw her during the day.. and shes txts me pretty much everyday -__-"
*sigh* shes my flat mate next year.. so i'll have to put up with it.. cos im too scared to say anything about it... dont really want make a big fuss out of it.. and im probs going through a ~~phase~~ and i'll be all fine about it by next week =P

so this pissed off mood with elaine lead on to the... i miss 6th form so much i feel like i wanna cry!

grrr.. i miss you guys! with the hanging out in rm 30 not working, and all the crazy stuff we did.. while we were at school! we were a little tight group of friends! and we hung out everydayyyyyyyyyy.

but i dont have that here... not really... well i have friends here but its different! like we had ONE group, and we hung out together all the time!!

here.. i have my PPPPP crew which i see every week day cos we have physics together, but we're not as tight, and we dont hang out much outside of lectures.. well half of them go out alot together.

then theres the other people on my course, elaine is in this group and i guess she would be my closest friend here, the other people i only really see in lectures, but i dont get to talk to them much this semester since im with the PPPPP alot of the time.

then theres the jap crew, most of the people here do jap. and since there campus is on the other side of the uni to mine.. i never see them during uni, so i only see outside uni, but i dont get to see them every week. mostly due to the fact i live miles away~~ in uni hall.. i think this group i can be my crazy self the most and then the PPPPP crew... i cant be so crazy around elaine and stuff... =S ahh so weirdddddd

then theres other random people i see here and there~~~

ok so bascially IM MISSING THE CRAZY!! THE LACK OF CRAZY IS MAKING ME CRAZY!!! GRRR....!! AND I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH!! and i know this sounds cheesy.. BUT U BRING OUT THE BEST IN ME!! I LIKE THE CRAZY FISHY!!

grr.. i hate myself for not being totally myself all the time!! i dunno if its totally my fault... but with some people, i dont really connect with, and plus.. im terrible with conversation.. especially if i just met them or someone i dont see very often. Its easier when the other person start everything -__-.. im so lazy.. but i seriously have no idea what to say!. my mind is blank!!

bascially theres 2 fishy's

1. the quiet/awkward fishy who is really bad a conversation which results in awkward silences

and theres

2. the crazy/loud/hyper fishy who does weird things and laughs way too much!

hmm.. i guess it depends on the person and how long i've known them to know which fishy u'll get. i mean i guess u might get no.1 fishy first but then get to know her veryyyyyyyyyy well... ending up with no.2 fishy. some people may get no.2 fishy straight away cos we click almost instantly. or u could get a mixture of the both =P

*sigh* i think i should try and be more of no.2 fishy... but no.2 fishy is still bad at conversation.. especially when i dont know them very well..

basically i have social issues! i dont make the first move in getting to know a person very often, so i guess thats my biggest issue on why i cant be crazy in cardiff... =(

*sigh* anyway i should be getting to bed

see u soooooooon~~~~

My First Flat

So i said i would post of pictures of my flat next year like.. a few posts ago! and now i finally am! ^__^


The Front of the house, which is split into 3 flats, im living in the top one!!, so that tiny square window is my bedroom window, and the other top one which is kinna cut off in the pic is jess's bedroom window.

so im gonna attempt to give u a "virtual" tour of my flat, with the pics i have, i didnt take the pics cos i wasnt there at the time =P

so u'll enter my house. which is number 19! but since i live in the top flat its actually 19C! so remember to find the 19C doorbell! ok so as soon as you open the door right infront of u is a flight of stairs, climb up those, then u'll see the door to the 2nd floor flat(dunno if anyone has decided to rent that place yet, so i dunno who our neighbours will be), yeah so u'll climb up another flight of stairs at the top theres gonna be 2 doors either side of you, my flat is the door on ur RIGHT! (the other door is a door to one of the rooms in the 2nd floor flat), so u'll enter my flat.. and ur greeted with another flight of stairs!! ^_^ so climb up that, when u reach the top this is what you will see....


a skinny corridor, if i can remember the first room on the right is the kitchen, then the room next to it is the bathroom. The room at the bottom of the corridor is the living room. So lets take a trip down the corridor..

Kitchen!



thats like half the kitchen, we do have a hob and a fridge in there =P. i was too lazy to post up the other kitchen photos.

Bathroom!

again half of the bathroom, basically ur view when u open the door, theres a sink on ur left where the bathtub ends, toilet on the right, and washing machine behind the door (hehe i know.. how random~~) so the bathroom is a good size! i think its bigger than the one i have at home!

Living room

living room currently has no sofas.. but there will be some when we move in, so dont worry we wont make u sit on the floor =P

now turn around! and walk down the corridor again and next to the top of the stairs that u came up from u'll see...


another flight of stairs! this one only has like 3 steps... and i swear its the last flight of stairs u'll have to climb. so this upper level is where the bedrooms are. Theres some space on the fight of the pic we're gonna put a dining table there, since we dont have anywhere else to put one =P.
so straight ahead is my room, then theres 2 on the left, first one is elaine's and then jess's

Elaine's room

i think elaine has the biggest room, and she gets the view of the back of the house, so basically she can see the "garden".. which is basically a concrete square =P.. which most student houses have since students dont have time to do gardening =P

Jess's room

is the room next to mine! gahh i wish we could change the curtains... -__-"

The the most important room... MINE!!

i have a tiny window! so cute!.. yeah i basically have the smallest room.. cos i wanted it cos of the tiny window and curved roof, which i dont have a pic of.


at the time i have no bed in my room, just a matteress wrapped in plastic.. my sister said i should keep it like that and not have a bed.. which i somewhat agree with. But the landlord would think i was kinna odd asking to have no bed in my room =P.. oh and thats a very dusty table on the left =P

so thats my lovely little flat... a very white one... ^_^. it looks kinna bleh at the mo since the landlord is doing up the top 2 flats, so no one is living there at the moment; so we're gonna be the first ones! ^_^ but by the time i've moved in and made it more homely, u lot all have to come down!!

the rent is like £255 per month per person, bills and stuff altogether is roughly £30 per month per person. so thats £285 per month per person. The rent is more that what we originally planned for, our original budget for the rent was £230, but there wasn't that many, and the ones we saw.. weren't that nice. so yeah we had to go up.. mostly looking at £250/£240 and a few £260... some of those weren't so nice or a bit inconvenient. so im happy with our flat, it has the best location since its right inbetween the physics building and the bioscience building (where Jess and Elaine are gonna be since they do medicine), its also close to shops and right behind the union! also on the same road as 2 bars =P. Originally the flat was on rent for £260 but cos it has no rear access he dropped it down to £255, (the 2nd floor flat is for rent for £260).. we actually asked the landlord if he could drop it again to £250.. but he wouldnt budge, which is understandable since he's already dropped the rent once. We didnt mind and since its a small-ish flat we'll probs save money on electricity and heating anyway.

rwar! so talk to you guys later~~
u're always welcome in my flatttttttt.. so u'll better come down every weekend!! ^_^

I love eating... and so should others! =P

Grr.. anyway.. this post is gonna be different then my usual...

yeah.. so i came across a fourm post about blogrings on xanga, specifically on ones about weightloss, so i went on to xanga to see.. and its all true!! basically the members of these blogrings are basically aiming to be skinny.... i mean fair enough if u want to lose some weight if ur overweight, or u want to get to a healthy weight.. but u should see the names of some of these blog rings!!

"because skinny jeans aren't meant for fat people"
"we want thighs that dont touch"
"I'm fat, you're fat, lets starve"
"make me size 0"

and it gets worst.. the usernames of these GIRLS in these blog rings

"diesknnyx3"
"Bones_are_Beauty_x3"
"iwannabeskinny11"
"stravesimply"
"skinnyforlove"

these girls basically blog about how much (rather how little) they have eaten, and how many calories it was worth.. some of these girls brag about the fact they've ate nothing that day! they are obssessed about food and weight!! all they talk about is food!! and how they feel bad cos they went over their self decided daily intake of calories!! which probably is nowhere close to the recommended daily intake!

i read some of these blogs.. one of these girls aim to be 98lbs! another wanted to be 82lbs!! and omg i have to post up one of these girls' goals...

"protruding hipbones;;
protruding collarbones;;
protruding ribcage;;
thighs not touching;;
smaller arms;;
size x-small shirts;;
size 00;;"

gahh.. any bone protruding bones creeps me out!! >__<.. im already freaked out by my wrist bone!!

omg, i also have to post this up..

"So..i got a new scale today..

And i weigh in at 104.8. ): I would like to get back down to at least 93.."

GAH!! you weigh less than me!!! (while looking at this i looked up my own weight..which last time i checked was 8 stone.. which is about 112lbs).. and people say im anorexic *cough* siobhan *cough*... yeah im just gonna say.. i dont like it when people call me anorexic..

wahh anyway.. after reading all there crap.. you might wonder if they really do need to drastically change their diet to lose weight... i have no idea how to tell... ok true they do have their current weight.. but me being me.. having no sense of weight.. its just a number to me... so i cant tell if there really overweight.. or a skinny girl trying to be even skinnier; yeah so anyway.. there are no pictures of them... i mean there are pictures on there.. like loads... and guess what there of... SKINNY GIRLS!! some celebs.. others just random girls...( its kinna creepy, that it seems like these girls stalk other girls who have "perfect" bodies, then post their pictures on their blog).. yeah u can see protruding bones on alot of these girls.

Grrrr.. these girls annoy me so much!! i actually see no point in being so thin that ur basically a walking skeleton.. and i can't see how anyone could perceive that as being beautiful or attractive!!

i so wanna just wanna shove it in their faces, and start a xanga, where i post up all the food i've eaten each day, brag about the fact that i still weight less than them, and the fact that im happy!! YES U WANNABE TWIGS! I HAVE EVERYTHING! I CAN EAT, BE HAPPY AND STILL WEIGH LESS THAN YOU!!

sorry for that narcissistic outburst... you guys know thats not me..=P... it just these girls are incredibly stupid!!.. i mean lose weight in the healthy way!! and goddamn have sensible goal weight!

bleh this topic disgusts me.. but i have to rant about it.. bleh i guess the media is to blame.. as its the blame for most things these days... *sigh*... do these really think there gonna be happy when they eventually reach their goal weight?.. not surprisingly most of these girls are in their teens, or late teens.... their so gonna regret all of this when there older... assuming that they havent starved themselves to death by that point~~

ok im gonna end this rant, with... nobody likes seeing bone, so go eat something!!

bye bye... eat eat eat till ur stomach explodes ^__^