eve eve

ahh i havent blogged since i got back to birmingham so here it is

well.. since im here and some of you already know... james and i have agreed to be just friends... i think..we've both forgiven each other... what for?... im not completely sure.. =P... we'll see what happens....

so got back to brummie land on the saturday 12th.. omg.. i was in such a rush, since i was the last one leaving the flat, i had to take out the rubbish and stuff, and i like called the taxi which i thought would take them like 10 minutes to come.. but they came in 5!! gah!! so i rushed to get out... and realised on the train.. that i forgot to take the cheese and bread out of the fridge -___-".. luckily there all in bags...and the fridge is still on.. hope we dont get a nasty surprise when we get back!

i actally hated being back in birmingham for the first couple of days.. all due to my mum... im allowed to relax properly!.. literally i've wrapped ALL the presents... my mum NEVER wraps chritsmas presents!! cos every year i wrap them!! cos i have to!! >_<... and she gives loads of jobs to do around the house yet still expect to study... hello!! its like.. she can see im studying yet she still asks me to do 101 things!! but its better now.. since i've already done most of the jobs that to be done now -__-"... oh and treats me as an atm.. seriously... i already leant her £200 from the last time i came back.. and guess what i had to do today?!.. i paid her freakin' car tax!! £125!! the logic behind this... shes really close into her overdraft where she would be fined.. whereas I don't get fined for using my overdraft or have any interest on it... so im even MORE into my overdraft!! luckily its christmas; a time for giving... and having many uncles and aunts is an advantage =P.

*sigh*
so far i've met up with vicky, kevin, luke, sarah(briefly), mush, nicola.... wheres the rest of you.. huh?!....

my bedroom is freaking colddddddddddd like i have the electic heater in there.. but its so big it makes little difference... i can't study in there!! tooooooooooo cold! ! and the spare room is also just as cold!!.. so today i've finally discovered.. the front dining/living room.. its warm and has a big table to put my crap on ^_^~~ shame i only just discovered it.. i barely go in this room!... but its good i have this place.. can finally be in a place im comfortable to study in. got 4 exams in january!... gahh so scareddddddddddddddddddd

my mum hasn't cut my hair yet... gots split ends -__-" and i want it thinnedddddddddddd.... probs get it cut before i leave.. shes been too busy -__-"

its christmas eve now... HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS ^__^~~~~

22

i've been a lot more relaxed this past week ^_^~~

have just over a week till uni ends for christmas... i still.. have no urgency to want to go home... its makes me feel bad cos it makes it sound like everyone at home dont mean much, which isnt true!! and its like.. why i rarely ring home.. it never comes across my mind to call home..
i'm often referred to having a cold heart.. or a black heart... i know these people are joking and dont actually mean it, but i think it is true in some sense.. well... it appears that i have a cold heart anyway. I dont really know the truth myself =P

hmmm... the past few days i have been irritated my elaine... well.. shes hasnt done anything to me.. its just her behaviour; i find it annoying... shes like... "socially awkward"... like one example this week... her friend from her course is having a party today, so her friend invited her to the party; elaines response to this invitation.. was... basically " im free that night, but i dont know any of ur friends, so im not going to go"... -___-"..... whats the harm in meeting new people?!?!

also... she obviously doesnt like keith... its true that at home i moan that keith is annoying and that i dont like him... which honestly isn't true.. me and keith get along well, therefore we're friends. Its true that he takes "advantage" of our friendships as im always doing him favours, cos im GOOD friend. i think this why elaine has a negative view of him... keith has done nothing to elaine that im aware of. keith added her on FB sometime last year, she was surprised.. but this year she told me she de-friended him off FB.... i'm sorry but that was totally uncalled for... Keith has done nothing AT ALL to offend elaine personally... and has done nothing to deserve being defriended... i know this sounds silly.... but really.... she defriended him for no reason. oh and shes not very comfortable when he comes over.

oh and today... well we always try and eat together... so elaine and jess both finish lectures at 3.. i've finished lectures already... elaine is going to some churchy thing a 7.. so jess was like.. why dont we start cooking at 5 and eat around 5:30... and elaines "excuse" is.. its too rushed.. and that she'd rather eat by herself... O_O!!... seriously... theres like a 4 hour gap where we could easily cook, eat and have time to spare... *sigh*

theres been loads of weird anti-social elaine things.. but i cant remember them all...

oh! one of thems is like... cos she doesnt know many people on her course, *surprise surprise*, like one night the people on her course we're having a social... at the bar which is 1 minute away from our flat. she didnt go... its like.. this is a oppotunity to get to know the other people on ur course, u dont have to drink; just go and meet people!! yeah.. she doesnt go to any socials.... the only "socials" she goes to are churchy stuffs. oh and her friend is president of malaysian soc... so she joined this year... hasnt been to any events -__-".... i mean last year elaine said she would defiantly join malaysoc next year.... helllllllllllllllllllo.. u've joined.... but u havnt been to any eventsssssssssssssssssssss. *sigh*... i understand that she doesnt drink or enjoy clubbing or "going out".. or any kind of party im guessing.... BUT REALLY!!... develop some social skillllllllllllllssssssss

anyway i should stop bashin elaine and her antisocial-ness... shes lovely really... just has irritating qualities...

i gonna go do some work now...

*sigh*

Hope everyone is doing well.. well better than i am anyway...

update on james..., yeah i was angry at him.. last tuesday??... never got to tell him that... though... though i did manage to tell mark on friday night while i was trying to sober up before bed. That call actually made me feel better.. made me realise that i was angry at him for stupid reasons and that i was being selfish; even if he did tell everything to my face, it would make no difference, and would likely to cause more drama. Though i should've have known.. mark and james share every single piece of info.. so by saturday james found out i was angry at him... so he rang me... im actually surprised he still had my number... he already de-friended me off facebook..., that was an awkward call.. since i was no longer angry at him and i just wanted to move on... by then i agreed that its probably best we're not friends anymore; i didnt want that, neither am i happy about it. What happened a few weeks ago is the second time its happened... obviously... being just friends is not working... and no-one wants it to happen for a 3rd time~~~
so *sigh* im over it~~~.... we'll still see each other around, im sure of it! but it'll be different~~~

well anyway.. friday was a general crap day... had a dream that my dad died... therefore.. i over slept.. so i missed my only lecture that day at 10am.. oh well =P... i can't learn anything off that lecturer anyway. I tried to switch my laptop.... -__-".. log in page wouldnt load... restarted...same... tried to boot it in safe mode....same... -______________-", yups my laptop died on meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....... took it to the uni IT shop~~~
so since... both jess and elaine had lectures all day.. i was stuck in the flat all day..alone... since... i wasnt in the mood to go out... watched my neighbour totoro.....
felt crap generally for the whole weekend, laptopless~~~.... though i did magane to buy a christmas tree and put it up!.. i know it sounds insanely early... but i only have 3 weeks of uni left!

SO Monday was disgusting... had labs... wanted to kill myself.. even more so than usual... the experiment made no sense.. and the stupid amplifier circuit is gayyyyyyyyy and the demonstrator had no idea what he was talking aboutttttttt.... grrrrrrr...... my value for plancks constant was wayyyyyyyyyy off.... oh well.. aslong as i pass this module i dont care if i get a high mark or not~~~ also i got my laptop back... you'd think i'd me happy about it.... BUT I'M NOT!!!

1).....i no longer have MS office
2) my formely partitioned hard drive is now one ugly thing

i was really not in the mood to deal with my disgusting laptop when i got home..... ¬____¬, basically what was wrong with my laptop was some fault in one of the software.. anyway.. they re-installed windows... and pretty crapily too... everything just feels and looks wrong!! >__< grrr...!!

so today~~~ got home and tried to sort this mess of a laptop out, my first plan was to reinstall windows myself... but my recovery disk wont boot up -___-".. i only wanted to do that to try and restore MS office.. but thats not working.... oh well.. not too fussed about that, more fussed about the partition. SO! while trying to partition my 147GB hard drive... the freakin' C drive refuses to be any smaller that 125GB which meant my D drive could only be 21GB!! GAH! when i first got the laptop it was already partitioned 50/50, so i know its possible!!!! so to google!! found out its a very common problem... cos Vista is gay and sucks balls!!! .... basically.. any solution involves a lot of geekery which im not in the right mind to attempt, though a simple solution was to defragment the C drive.. and u know what.. my laptop refuses to do it!!!... actually my laptop was issues doing anything that involves the administrator permission, even though I AM the administrator... it wont do it... -___-" so im not on good terms with my laptop.. i want it to die a horrible horrible death.....

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FRICK! GRRRRR... STUPID BALL-LESS JAMES!!

GOT A FACEBOOK MESSAGE

HE WANTS TO CEASE CONTACT WITH ME

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

IM SO ANGRY AT HIM!!!

ONLY TIME THAT I DIDNT WANT TO RUN AWAY!! HE RUNS OFF FIRST!!

he's a friend.. i dont want to lose a friend...

30/10

I feel guilty for not letting you guys know what the hell my last post was about... so i think i should explain everything.. plus it'll be a release for me... i honestly dont have anyone im comfortable to tell this to.. the closest person i have to this is.. keith. My flatmates have no idea...

So the person this is concerning is NOT keith... but James.. im sure i've mentioned him before... met him near the beginning of the year at anime soc.. we became friends, along with a bunch of other people..mark..cerys..adi..alex.. we hung out together.

So everything was fineee, we were all friends..untill... the day before we left for easter, last academic year. It was drink the bar dry at the taf, and i was there with my physics friends and some dudes from engineering. Anime soc were having a meeting at 6.. so left the taf for a bit and to return after the meeting. I met James at the meeting then after the meeting we returned to the taf. You see.. my physics/engineering friends were hanging out near the door, so when i walked in to the place with james, i hit one of my friends to get there attention to let them know i was back (just to let you guys know.. he was asian, and will be referred to as "chubby asian dude"). so when i got asian dudes attention, he dragged me into the circle to tell me we were going to solus, the club and that they were waiting for me to get back till they went to solus. So i left the circle to find james... and he was GONE ( and the fact that the taf was packed didnt help).. literally i was in the circle for 10 seconds!! i couldnt see him at all... and in all the confusion i just went to solus with the guys.. and txted james asking him where he was and that i was going to solus. He was annoyed with me... in his opinion i ditched him for a chubby asian dude (to be honest, i actually ditched for several dudes...), he stayed in the taf; mark and alex joined him while i was in the solus.
So i felt really bad for leaving him in that way.. but hes the one who deserted me first; i said hello to a friend, i would've expected any other person to wait for me.. but he didnt, by the time i turned round to find him i couldnt see him at all. I eventually felt less crap about myself as the night went on......
I got home at uni hall around 1-ish (had to catch the train back to bham the next day..didnt stay up too late..)..so when i got home i rang james to apologise. He was drunk... he was saying stuff like..i love you, but you dont love me... at this point i thought he meant love between 2 friends; platonic love... so i said that i did love him (as a friend... cos honestly i've only thought of him as a friend and nothing more)... so he was like....then come see me now.. and my response... its late, im not walking down to ur house to see you... so his idea, was to walk to uni hall. Half an hour after the call.. he was at uni hall...at like 2 in the morning. At this point you're probs thinking, this dude has some feelings for me, i live like a half an hour walk away from him!.... me?... i thought he was just being a drunk and slightly angry friend.
So i let him in... i can't even remember what we talked about.. i think i apologised alot.. for apparently ditching him for chubby asian dude... i dont think he really accepted it. Honestly after a while i wanted him to leave.. it was like 2 in the morning and i had a train to catch the next morning!! He was in my bed refusing to leaveeeeeeeeeeee grrrr..... so yeah i was getting kinna harsh on him so he would leave!!.. he left eventually.. taking my sausage pillow, watch and jigglypuff with him and what seems to be in a massive mood!!
I felt crap!! for treating a friend like this.... and you think this is where the night ends... well it gets worst!! so i guess on the way back home he starts texting me... i honestly cant remember what exactly they said... but something on the lines of... i love you...i'm sorry..blah blah. STILL! at this point i didnt believe those words... and from that night the only thing i felt was that he hated me for treating him that way, we never spoke about what happened that night.. so things just got kinna awkward, our friendship group.. everyone vaguely knew what happened, we still hung out together.. but it wasnt the same... we avoided talking to each other.. i definitely avoided eye contact.. i always believed that he didnt want me there and that he hated me. And it was actually mark who returned my stuff and not james.

So the new academic year starts, and thankfully we started afresh... like all the stuff that happened before summer never happened. I was happy that i got my friend back, didnt even think about the things we wrote in those txts and what had happened. Things were going fine.. until last friday.....

It was the halloween anime screening, i was there... sitting at the front..... james, mark and ashley came in late and sat at the back. The screening was random "scary" episodes from 4 different anime. So after the 3rd episode we had a break, so i went to the back to say hello and stuff.. they snuck in vodka and coke.. and were kinna drunk.. =P.. and well i kinna joined in.. and continued sitting at the back for the last anime (it was hellsing... honestly.. i had no idea what happened in that cos i was distracted).. james kept distracting me.. and making me "scream" or "wail".. as i do... (dave the president wasnt that happy about that).... so yeah after the screening we went to the taf.. like we do after every screening.. and got more drinks... and fast forward till when it was just me, james and mark left; the the stuff inbetween is irrelevant .
So the 3 of us went back to my place for a bit.. since it was raining..... so yeah... while james was in the toliet... mark asked me..." do you like james?".. my answer.. "no".... then he asked " do you like keith".. my answer.."no"... and whether you lot believe it or not... they were my honest answers. It was so out of the blue when mark asked this... but i didnt think much of it.
So james was tired.. and again... just like deja vu.... he was on my bed..again.. practically sleeping this time. They left after mark went to the loo... and this time james took my leavers hoodie with him when he left, he actually wore it. So the pair left, all smiles and everything this time...

So the night went "ended" pretty similar to that other night, without the anger and self hating. I thought it was funny how everytime james has been in my room he has been in my bed.. and left with my belongings. Well... it turned out to be just like that other friday... he sent me a text

it read... "rejection is one thing but rejection from a fool is cruel".......

"-__-.... it was so out of the blue and unexpected after the night we had, the only thing i could link this with is that mark told him about what we tlked about

i replied.. " o_0?... get home safely, ok?.. and dont get raped by glen"

i know.....weird reply.. i was tired and didnt want to deal with this, it was 3 in the morning!

his reply.." you don't love me so i've thrown away your jumper. Glen raped mark. I ran."

my reply.. " you don't love me either.....(i cant remember the rest)"

i wasnt thinking much when replying.. i just wanted to sleep!

his reply.. -__-"....." i love you so horribly much. i don't want to. and i shouldnt. please kill me"

GAH! at that point i still did not believe it. well looking at the circumstances.. he's been drinking!.. and he has never said this to my face... only in dunken txts!, in person i don't see this "love"... to me he's just another guy friend, and treats me pretty much like all my other guy friends; therefore i have very little ground on to which i can accept it.

But.. to hear that he doesnt want to... brings me some comfort..oddily... i think we both know that we would never work

anyway.. my reply... " this doesnt sound like you.. go get some sleep..."

i think i handled this very weirdly... =S....

so anyway...woke up saturday and felt crap. I felt like i upset him or hurt him, and the fact that he was a friend made it so much harder. You guys know how i run away from guys, my favourite example being kenny =P, well i couldn't run away this time, cos that would mean i would have run away from everyone; mark, alex,cerys..etc.. they all knew james before me.. so it would be more appropriate if i left. But for this situation, running away would be the last option and not the first. *sigh*

Just like the first time i felt like he hated me.. though i had no contact with him.. i felt like he HATED me!... which led to me hating myself cos im too scared to do anything, i dont want it end like last time.. where we spent the rest of the year with an awkwardness whenever we were in the same room. Still havent mustered up the strength to say anything.

I actually saw him last night, random events led us to go visit him at talybont, i really wanted my hoodie back (mark and james live in the same flat now).... it was me, alex, stuart, mark and james. funnily enough the person who had my hoodie in their possession was not james, but it was mark again. **
we didnt speak, have eye contact and stayed way away from each other; apart from stuart i know the other two (mark and alex) knew what happened... chances are they probs know more than i do about the whole thing.

though before i headed home... i asked him... "you hate me, don't you?"... his answer was "no"... i refused to believe him...
I would find this so much easier if he hated me... maybe thats why im convincing myself that he hates me.... im not sure why... i've stopped making any sense

by the time i got home he sent me a txt..basically saying that he doesnt hate me at all, and that he was being awkward because of what happened last week. great.. i wonder how long the awkwardness will last this time.....

** james has no balls!! saying he "loves" me in a druken text!... though to be fair if he "confessed" in person, it would be the most depressing confession ever.. " im in love with you, but i dont want to be".... grrr.. and to get mark to return my stuff back to me, BE A MAN!! and to tell me that i rejected him eventhough i havent said anything to him! did u get mark to ask me those questions?... where you too scared to ask them urself?....

*sigh*... the only way i can imagine this to be solved is that i'll get so drunk one night that'll i'll just word vomit out everything....

who knows whats gonna happen after that.....

(im sorry.. this is a monster of a post, honestly i dont mind if nobody finishes it.. just typing it all out makes me feel less stressed... but do me a favour... don't ask me about this situation, i dont want to talk about it; i'll talk about it when i'm ready...)

GWAHHHHHHHHHBWAAAAAAAAAAARWARRRRRRRRRRRRR

GRRRR..... i hope this week ends quickly.. gots work to do but really not in the state of mind to concentrate!! felt crap all weekend.. and all dayyyyyyyyy~~~

i think i upset someone; but im too scared to pick up the phone

they havent made the first move which is frustrating me... but maybe i should be making the first move this time...

i hate it when people txt you under the influence of alcohol and you dont know if they meant it or not

why did history repeat itself?... i hope i have enough strength to solve this problem..rather than let it past by like before

i wish this person wasnt a friend.. it would much easier if it was some random stranger who i would never have to see again

im too scared to meet this friend cos i have no idea how things will turn out

GAH! i hate myself for being so scared! i hate myself for having no strength!

14

its been a while since i last blogged... but im kinna bored so im try and blog about something

so last weekend i came back to birmingham ^_^ yeys! came back on friday around 3! so met up with mohan, since no one was freeeeeeeeeee, decided to meet up at aston uni so mohan could show me aroundddddddddddd. TONS of asianss!! its alot smaller than cardiff.. though im not surprised since cardiff is so spread out~~ they have there own subway in the GUILD! (omg its so weird to me hearing GUILD.. since im used to calling it the SU). so had the tour.... the business school has hairy glass hanging from the ceiling =S. After the tour we went to woktastic! this is actually been the 6th time i've eaten since returning to cardiff... i had ramen this time! which i didnt have the other 5 times i went.. but seriously... if anyone wants to take me to a japanese restaurant in the next couple of weeks... i will punch their face in.... getting bored of the menu.....

The reason i went back to birmingham last weekend is cos my aunt from america is visiting us for the week, the last time my dad saw her was more than 20 years ago when my dad visited her in the US. This is her first time to meet my mum and me and jess. Shes so short, and has an american accent; shes much older than my dad.. i think by around 10 years i think. I think shes adorableeeeeeeeeeeeee. I feel kinna bad for only getting to stay for the weekend, she arrived on saturday morning and i left sunday afternoon. It would've been nice to hear all the stories about my dad and my uncles and learn abit more about my family.

My aunt whose name is kim, she left vietnam when my dad was only 14, my dad had 6 other brothers and sisters, kim was the oldest... she practically raised all her brother and sisters since my grandparents we're too busy... kim actually said that my grandmother "didn't know how to look after children".... im unsure on all the details, but she left vietnam.. with an american soldier and they got married and had 2 kids... I HAVE HALF AMERICAN COUSINS!... they're really old now anyway.. ones chris and the other michelle. Chris is actually married and has 2 little girls.. WHO HAVE BLONDE HAIR!!.. I HAVE BLONDE RELATIVES!! .... its weird they dont look asian AT ALL!!... Kim has lived in the US for so long she prefers talking in english, where she lives theres only one other vietnamese family around, so its hard to keep speaking vietnamese when there isnt many people around who'll understand you. Anyway.. she divorced her soldier husband at some point.. then got married again... but got divorced again.. so shes single and living on her own now. i wish i could've stayed longer, have no idea when i'll get the chance to see her again, i wanna meet my cousins too! i doubt she'll take another trip over here, shes getting oldddddddd; but i hope we'll get to go to the US and visit her soon! my mum actually wanted to go to america last summer but my dad said nooooooooo... he wants to go to vietnam first. I think we're going this summer... hopefully..., my dad hasnt even started applying for the visas though he said was gonna get them done since the start of the yearrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

This week has been pretty busy.. since i didnt get any hmwk done over the weekend, and monday is a full day and then we had the physics social pub crawl in the evening, got home at 2:30.. i think...... had absinthe for the first time... wasnt very exciting.. though i finally had that Margarita slush puppy thingy! it was colddddddddddddddddddd
Tuesday night was the japsoc halloween party, it started at 7:30.... cos i was too lazy to pay.. and the money was really for the food... and i didnt want to eat there.. so i just joined late. MAN there were so many asians... but i didnt bother to talk to any of them, just had fun with the friends i already have, wasnt in the mood for meeting new peoples, and i probs wont see them again since they're mosty jap and business students. Went to a club after, live lounge.. stuff happened there which i wanna forget about... lets say.. im traumatised.... and will never go to any other jsoc event ever again...

GWAHHHhbwaaahrarrrrrrr

ahhh... on to my 3rd week of lectures... it seems like i've been on the same timetable for ages... time flies so fasttttttttttttt... its only been 2 weeks!! oh welll.... i admit.. i still havent made any proper friends with the people on my course... i think i've given up on the idea... im comfortable with my PPers that i dont really need a whole bunch of new people... well to be fair josh is in our group now... and ethan... they are also physics prelimers.. but we'rent with the cool PPers last year =P oh! and..err..iystyn.. i think thats how u spell his name =S..(weird welsh name... pronounced.. YES-tin)... we was a prelimmer 2 years ago... but failed one module so re-did prelim last year.. but only one module.. so yeah.. he hangs with us sometimes.. and that hes in my tutorial group ^_^~~
It was the Chaos (physics soc.)...welcome thingy last monday.... honestly.. i tlked to more 2nd years than 1st years... i didnt meet any 3rd years... and tlked to anime soc president Dave whose a 4th year.. and some random phD students. Oh!.. so that night i intoduced myself as "fishy".. since its alot more memorable than "fiona".... so i introduced myself to one the 1st years, whose name is oliver... and his reaction..."thats creepy...."... i admit.. i was offended..... never thought my name fishy...would come across creepy..... but after a while... i found it ok not to like this guy... 1)... that night he was talking to dave.. about a neo-nazi film.. something about "skinheads"?... im not sure on the whole thing.. but bascially its about racists.....dave wasn't very into the topic.. dont think anyone else was.... and 2)... iystyn had practical with him... and oliver said that he has a statue of hitler in his room.... iystyn couldn't tell if he was joking or not.... basically... this guy is weird.....its ok not to like him...
OH! last saturday i had the flu.. which lasted like..2 days... i woke up saturday with a feverrrrrrr and went a bit hyper.. and i probs pissed off elaine cos i needed the heating on.. and her room is always warm with 2 radiators.. and mine is always cold since i have 1 tiny radiator.... and yeah it made her room too warm she had to go study in the lounge =P i kept worrying that i had swine fluuuuuuuuu.... but i dont... since the fever lasted like 2 days and ive just spent the rest of the week coughing~~~
*sigh*... ive already told some of you this.... but it pisses me off... okok.. so tuesday i go to karaoke with some friends... and it was like... 10 when it finished and we wanted to go somewhere... so i said we can go back to mine since they havent been there yet... so first we went to McD's first.. and i txted elaine and jess to tell them... and elaine txted back.... "no, we have 9 o'clock lectures"...pfft... I HAVE a 9 o'clock lecture! so yeah we went to andrews house instead. then the next day elaine and jess came up to me and were like.... "we like your friends.. but dont invite them in the evenings on weekdays".....errr....ok then.... i'll try not to then.... honestly i think this is all elaine and jess is agreeing within reason... i mean i understand their point... if u have an early start you want to get to sleep early... honesty on weekdays my friends leave around 1 anyway, which for a student is not an unreasonable hour. To give u the full story.. last friday was when i invited my friends over cos it was one of the nearest places to go... yeah and most of us stayed till 3, with the last of us leaving at 4..... to justify this.. IT WAS A FRIDAY!! WE HAVE NO LECTURES THE NEXT DAY... MY FLATMATES HAVE NOTHING TO DO THE NEXT DAY!!.... anyway!! today elaine slipped this while we were doing the shopping list....basically... a curfew for our guests... her idea... all guests have to leave by 2...this is for weekends too... jess was caught off guard too...and we all know that this whole guest curfew is aimed at me, since im the only one who invites people over.. -____-"... anyway we mananged to push the curfew to 3am. Elaines justification... SLEEP...basically she wants to sleep in the evening... u know what?!... i understand that... BUT!! U SLEEP DURING THE DAY ANYWAY!!... u go to lectures... get home.. nap...eat...have another nap... study a bit.. then sleep.... i swear the girl over sleeps since she always tired and lathargic!!! GAHHHH.. i know theres nothing wrong with the curfew time... since thats when most people leave anyway.. but the idea that there is a curfew pisses me off... i mean wouldnt it be weird knowing ur invited to someones home but knowing u're gonna be forced out at a certain time. I didnt even have any kind of curfew at home.. why the hell do i have one here?!.... gah.. anyway.. im not gonna stick to it... if its 3 and people are still here.. im not gonna chuck them out... i dont want to chuck them out... there my guests and i want want them to stay... elaine and jess dont have the guts to ask my friends to leave anyway...so.. meh!!..... its not like im excluding them out of anything i do... actually i always invite them out to what ever i do, they just never take up the offer. *sigh*.. like adi said... im living with a a bunch of geeks.... 2 medics and a physicist.... and the physicist is the most social out of the 3... what are the chances eh? =P

i think elaine is being over the top with this.. the FIRST (and only) time i invite people round in the evening we stayed till 4am.... who says this is gonna happen everytime.. and often?!... its not like im gonna invite people over EVERY week.. and we're gonna stay till 4am each time!.. i mean i would love to... but it wont happen. *sigh*... im actually being very passive about the subject.. since my place isnt the only place me and my friends can go to, we can go somewhere we're all welcomed, no matter what the time~~~

while im on this rant about boring anti-social people

whats the deal with mainland chinese people... they like... only socialise with other mainland chinese people, the whole of last year.. if i met a chinese people..and actually spoke to them.. 80% of the time there from HK... 20% is malay chinese. I DONT KNOW ANY MAINLAND CHINESE!! honestly i dont know why it bugs me since i dont have a particular interest in them but... the anti-social ness of it bugs me~~ and you know keith is living in a house with 7 other people and half of them are from mainland china.. he doesnt even have proper conversations with them.. honestly... he doesnt even know all their names; i mean keith is not an anti-social person at all... it just seems like hes a stranger in his own home.... like he has no connection to the other people in the house because there in there own little tight group. i mean language isnt an issue since keith is able to speak mandarin too.. and apparently they only speak chinese at home... like.. not a word of english is spoken in the house.. keith reckons they dont know english.. which is ridiculous.. why study in the UK and not know english?! the way keith talks about them.. makes it seems i wouldnt be welcome in the house..... i dont wanna generalise... but HK chinese people are far better than mainlanders =P.... im gonna disown my 30% chinese-ness... since im sure its not from HK... its from Hainan, China.. which is an island... so not technically "mainland", actually its so close to vietnam.. it might as well belong to vietnam =P

ok this was a very odd post... hope you enjoyed it =P....... (im not hating on mainlanders... there just not very welcoming to non-mainlanders... and im not the only one who thinks this...)

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*sigh* so its been over a week since i've got here..

last week i only had enrolment on wednesday and induction on friday. Enrolment day was also nathans b'day! so old!!.. and ieuan failed his maths resit =(... but is gonna resit that module this year, so is still in cardiff! yey!! ^__^!.. but you guys dont need to know that.. yeah so we all eventually got to Zushi to have ramen! (minus sam, who does eat... he's a robot!)... so yeah went out to metros(club).. that night.. though me, gaz, owain and sam got distracted by sam's guitar and left at 11, so by the time we got there the queue was maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaassssssssssssssive... yeah.. we waited 2 hours to get in!!... and nathan wasn't feeling that well.. so by the time we got in he left!! =O! knob... oh well.. it was a good night anyway... got home around 5~~

Friday was induction for my whole year... theres around 95 of us altogether... i counted like 15 girls altogether... and there was one other asian guy there.. but left half way through the meeting.. and i havent seen him in any of my lectures... so yeah... i think im THE ONLY ASIAN in my year.... -___-" *sigh* actually meeting new people in my course is going poorly... cos the PPPPPPP.. is a large-ish group anyway we dont really "need" new people... and i think cos we're so close.. the other people are probs intimidated to attempt to try and talk to us... i still cant recognise most of the people in my year.. -__-"... though we had our first tutorial yesterday and my group... as 2 other prelimers.. laurence and jade.. and i already knew them! the other 2 guys were jay.. and some guy with a welsh name i cant remember >_<... jay was a nice guy! he was eating bread... he was hung over from the night before.. so the bread was to "absorb" the alchohol =P.

anyway anyway~~ last friday i finally got the internet up! took us 7 hours to set up!!.. cos when u set up the modem u have to go though the whole virgin account set up thingy..trough their website.. which takes foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.. so thats why it took 7 hourssssssssssss.. insane!! it was also the night keith came back... *sigh*.. he's a knob... i wont go on about why he's a knob now... cos this post woild super long if i did... oh! other than the boiler being "broken"... the kitchen sink, washing machine and toliet was leaking -__-".. there was a blockage in one of the outdoor pipes.. but thats fixed now!.. but omg yday me and elaine used the oven to make pizza.. and when we finished i switched off the oven, like the light was off too.. BUT!! the oven was still on!! it was still warm and getting warmer... not coolerrrrrr.... so we got scareddddd... it was half hour and it was still on... and we were about to ring the landlord.. but it thankfully switched off!! *sigh*.. crazy oven!

hmmm.. u might think.. why am i bloggin at 11 on a thursday morning... cos i finished my lectures for the day!... i love my timetable.. i only have one lecture on friday at 10!! ^^.. and wednesday and thursday i finish at 12 most of the time.. sometimes in finish at 11 on thursdays. tuesday i have a 4 hour gap... between my 9 o'clock lecture and my 2 o'clock computer lab thingy... but my mondays are packed.. 3 lecutres and a 4 hour practical -__-"... oh well... the rest of my week is love~~ for practicals and comp the year gets slipt up in 3 groups.. and all the prelimers are in one group! ^_^! yeys!! hmm.. cant really think of anything right now... so im gonna post up some picturessssssssss

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hehe i actually wrote this blog a few days ago.. and havent got round to posting it, cos i just got the internet set up at the flat! so imagine ur reading this.. like... a few days ago =p

Ahhh.. so i’ve finally moved in to my new flat ^_^~~.. ack! It was so dusty when we moved in.. loads everywhere.. literally everything you touch is dirty! I’ve washed my hands so much, there getting kinna dry =S

So lets start off with Friday night... see i rang the landlord a week ago to tell that we were moving in on the 19^th and that we should be there around 10am....he said to ring him again the day before moving day to remind him. So i did.. and turns out he cant meet us till 12am!... and the thing is... Elaine gets back to Cardiff around 10:30, after her massive journey from HK!! So she would have to wait around Cardiff with her luggage for a few hours... gah!! So i stressing about that! And by the time i got to speak to the landlord (i had to ring him THREE times till he picked up).. Elaine was already on the plane.. so i couldn’t tell her anything till Saturday morning when she arrives at heathrow... *sigh*..stress stress.. -____-“

Saturday Morning! Got up at 7:30!.. as we planned to arrive in Cardiff the same time as Elaine so she wont be alonee~~... but *sigh sigh*.. you know how we’re building the new garage/extension thingy...which by the way.. started months ago and should’ve only taken a few weeks.. but the builders are so unreliable that it still isn’t finished properly.. since they never turn up when there meant to! .. of all the days they decide to turn up.. it was THAT day!!.. luckily they just had to do the floor which took just over an hour to do. So yeah.. we were running a bit late to meet Elaine.. but luckily her coach was delayed.. and she was able to stay at her friends house which isn’t too far from ours till the landlord got there ^__^~~

So i arrived (with my dad and sister) at 12:45-ish.. Elaine was already there.. but the landlord had left by then. So my dad helped and cleaned and sorted out the gas and electricity bill for us ^__^.. and when jess arrived took us out to the Chinese restaurant (which is a minute away =P) to eattttttttttttt, then left =P. Anyway in between all that we discovered the boiler doesn’t work, so we have no hot waterrrrrrr... the pilot flame in the boiler has gone out.. and that there may be air trapped in the gas pipe so the boiler is trying to ignite air~~~... *sigh*... the landlord said he would try to come over on Sunday if he had a chance.. it was eid yesterday and he’s muslim.. so it was unlikely he would come.. and he didn’t! Oh well...

While i was typing i thought might aswell try to get the pilot flame going.. so i did.. and it works!! I FIXED THE BOILER!!.. could’ve done it earlier but my flat mates were scared i might blow up the house.. but there not here atm =P.. W00t!

So yahh Saturday evening, UNPACKING!! Which i hate almost as much as packing... and seeing it was a new room... had to think where to put stuff. This time i managed to fit all my clothes in one suitcase.. and i got it all to fit in my wardrobe!! ^__^... yeysssss... i have managed to find a place for all my stuff which is amazing since i have the smallest room.. and the least number of drawers out of the 3 of us. Hmmm.. i still need to get a lamp... my room is so dark cos my window is tinyyyyyyyyyyy. Its Monday when im writing this... Jess and Elaine haven’t finished properly unpacking yet... even though they have bigger rooms, the storage isn’t that great, there wardrobes are half the width of mine!.. oh! Btw.. i get new wardrobe and bed in my room...^__^!yeys!

Oh our kitchen is tinyyyyyy.... like we have our hob.. sink..kettle..toaster and microwave... and we have no room for anything else -__-“.... and we don’t have much space for bottles for sauce and stuff..*sigh*.. we have storage issues~~

Yesterday (Sunday).. me and Elaine got to get out new uni cards... my photo is an improvement... i don’t have a incredibly round head.. but its still a bad photo -__-“. After that we went to the giant tescossss.. and spent like 2 hours there buying random stuff for the house and fooooooooooooooooooooood, yums ^__^! OMG.. like.. we already have loads of toilet tissue left over from last year.. likeee we have at least 19 rolls already... but when we where at tescos we some how though it was a good idea to buy more.. so now we have a giant 24 pack plus the ones we already have.... we wont run out of toiler paper for a while~~~ after tescos went to the library to use the computers for a bit.. Elaine had to leave to have dinner with some friends so me and jess went home and i “helped” with dinner =P it was yummy ­^_^~~

I bet this blog is too long for anyone to finish by now.. so i’ll wrap it up!... currently have no internet in the house yet... unsure of when we will get any =(... tlk to u guys soooooooooooon

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hmm... MY ROLLER SKATES CAME!!! on wednesday.. while i was in turvey! so yeah.. the previous thursday.. i felt crap.. so brought myself a pair of rollers skates which you know that ive wanted a pair of roller skates for agessssssssss... so yeah i found a WHITE!! pair on ebay for £31.99... which for roller skates isnt too bad.. considering the ones we saw in office years ago were £50.. and weren't WHITEE!!.. with P&P it was almost £40... Roller skates are heavy!! .. so cos i wasnt home when they arrived my stupid sister opened them.. ¬___¬.. and tried them on.. since we're practically the same shoe size now.. though there a bit bigger than mine..apparently.. she couldnt skate in them.. cos shes a KNOBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB..i hate her...
so came back on thursday and tried them onnnnnnnn... lucky i went ice skating recently since the the technique is pretty similar... so i was skating in and out of the kitchen on our laminate flooring~~~ havent been outside on them yet... the field across the street has a newly resurfaced tennis court which would be perfect to skate on ^__^... but the time has never been right.. but i will get on there eventually~~ i'll post a piccy up sooooooooooooon

*sigh*.. my mum has been using my laptop in the evening to watch viet dramas.. which explains why im never online in the evenings since im too lazy to switch my other computer on~~~

oh! Turvey!! we finally got to turvey to visit nandi and mush!! it was me, vicky and ichi!! i remember we ate a lot... there was a lot of eating involved... and nandi was on some crazy diet where she just ate veggies,fruit and non processed food... NO dessert!! though she did make a cheesecake a few days before.. it was gooooooooooooooood ^__^~~..... oooooohh.. we took a walk around turvey... which is tiny...we found a field and a playground with swingsssssss, seesaw.. slide and a jungley gym thing... oh and the turvey tennis club! hmmm.. we watched "what women want".. and other random stuff.. and planned the ichi-fox wedding ^_^~~~ so we got to sleep around 3am =p. meh.. refused to get up the next morning... but did eventually.. around 12... had breakfast~~.. sat around .. and then off to the train station in northampton to go homeeeeeeeeeeee~~
after the train.. ichi went home.. and me and vicky stayed in town..=P... went to eat... and went around superdrug.. and selfridges... and again got attacked by the sqqu/RMK sales lady... but a different one this time.. SERIOUSLY!! we're too scared to walk past it just in case they'll come and try to sell stuff to us... and chinese sales peoples really shouldnt start speaking in mandarin to every asian person they see.... YOU'RE IN ENGLAND!! save urself the embarrassment and speak ENGLISH!!

gwahhh i have 2 weeks lefttttttttttttt before i leave for cardiff to live in my flat!! SO EXCITED!! but havent started to pack or plan anything... oh well =P...miss everyone from uni... cant wait till i get back! ^__^~~

hmm.. im sure there other stuff i wanted to blog about... cant think of anything atm... meh...

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anyway.. thought i'd finally put the pictures of my MAN GLAZE!! up~~


The Death Tar..~~~ ahh.. the non shiny-ness.. ^_^~~ (I hates my Camera.. its possible to take in focused close up pics -__-")



Fuggen ugly.. looks a bit shiny here cos of the light
omg.. i shouldnt buy any more nail varnish before i find a bigger box for them.. at the moment im using a skinny shoe box~~

anyway.. i got impatient so painted my nails again today



¬_¬ my hand looks so wrinkly

omg yday i went to the big library in town to try and get some books to read.. since ive been a lazy slob all summer; i need to keep my brain alive!!.. well.. i found the books, but u cant take them out!! grrr.. stupid library!! whats the point!!.. and i wasnt gonna sit in the library and read them!... *sigh*.. i was gonna ask peoples O_O... if i could use the uni libraries... but i dont need that now; i went on amazon and found the book i really wanted to read was like.. £7.. so i thought why not?! and while i was on there.. there was 2 other books by the same guy.. which appeared in the "what other people brought with this item".. thingy.. or something.. so yeah i ended up buying like 3 books.. which came to under £20 altogther.. with free postage! and it arrived this morning!! omg.. amazon is amazing.... i havent properly started reading it.. havent found myself in a comfortable enough mood to read =S
while im mention that.. i think ive become more and more agitated the longer i stay at home.. I REALLY WANNA PUNCH SOMEONE!!

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wow.. it feels like i havent blogged in agesssssss... though really it was only a week.. and that was a random blog..

yeah i havent been up to much.. some of you may know that last week my dads friend came to stay for the week, which meant i was shoved into the spare room.. which i didnt mind.. i like sleeping on the floor~~ and cos we had a guest over... we had great viet food everyday!! mmmm... so good ^_^!~~ yum yum~~ but now hes gone... the food is not so great.. -__-"... =P

oh my skin allergy started again last saturday cos i went out to sutton for a bit.. grr stupid pollen!! i thought went past any chance of it coming back since last year it started around june/july.. oh well.. this time it wasnt so bad.. very little swelling and just dry skin >__<.. a week later im pretty much fine now ^_^~~

oh yeah! we were meant to go to turvey on monday to visit much and nandi.. but we had to cancel got mushi got swine flu!! poor mush =(.. hope she gets better soon!.. oh and there grandmother passed away too =(.. so yeah it wasnt a great time to visit, BUT i'll make sure we will visit them before the summer is over!

wednesday we went ice skating at the snowdome! Rachel drove us there.. with JAMES! and vicky and kevin. we GRADED James! hes a E.. i think... he passed!! yey!! ^_^~~ omg i fell over only ONCE!! ^_^!! but i have bruises on both my legs cos of the skates. i actually have 3 little bruises on the right leg in a "L" shape.. =S weird~~

Thursday!! went out with vicky, xavier and his brother. went to eat sushiiiiiiiiii.. which i havent had since i got back to birmingham!! mmmmmm.... when went to that tea room in town.. Cha Cha Cha... hmm.. bit disappointed... not much variety.. and really over priced!.. but the atmosphere was ok.. quiet..since theres hardly anyone in there.. and u can play chesssssss. yeah so its just a nice quiet place to sit down and drink overpriced tea! and since it was a thursday.. which means.. COCKTAIL THURSDAYS!! even though we invite everyone.. its just been me and vicky O_O!! so this week we went to sobar instead of the loaf bar cos the loaf bar was packed with old people -__-". sobar actually has a cocktails thursday where cocktails are £4 each. I had a Lynchburg lemonade and vicky had a Chocolate martini! mmm...~~

This day inspired me to create a tea room/cocktail bar. during the day it will be a tea room.. with a gazillion types of teas.. and maybe coffees; and by night.. a cockatail bar.. with a gazillion types of cocktails ^__^~~ and it will be called... beansprouts and crab... random neh?.. it was the shopping list from my mum the other day and i thought it sounded like a good pub name.. like.. the fox and goose

so i havent been up to much... actually i had my Full Metal Alchemist 2 Marathon day! epidode 6 to 19.. so 14 episodes in one day!.. i've been lazy since the new series started during exam period.. so i thought i shouldnt start watching it.. and after exams.. i was kinna lazy. but im so glad i have caught up!! this series is SO good! well.. true this series is a "remake" of the first but it follows the manga much more. this series has a much faster pace and so far has had no fillers (kinna a good/bad thing.. cos i enjoyed the fillers in the 1st series).. the 2nd series has new characters which didnt appear in the first, but also has less focus on minor characters which appeared more often in the first series and yet but more focus on certain characters who appeared very little in the first series. Yeah, so im loving the new series.. even though i was a bit skeptical about it when i first heard about it. hmm.. so for someone who hasnt watched any FMA... i dont think you need to watch the second series without watching the first series since they both basically start at the same point. i think the first series as more comedy elements to it, yet is at a slower pace which means u get more detail on certain topics and u get to know the characters better, but i think you would appreciate the second series much more if you watch the first Series first, since theres more of a story. honestly.. im not loving the opening and ending songs in the new series.. the songs for the the first series are much better!! YUI sings the first opening in the second series.. honesty.. im not loving her.. she also did a opening and ending song for bleach. Her voice annoys me since it sounds like shes struggling half the time and her songs a bit samey samey~~

anyway i dont have much else to say.. and im getting kinna hungry... ttyl~~

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Recently.. i have found other artists singing DBSK's songs... so i'd though i'd share~~

first one is i was looking at JLS videos on YT... cos i love them



=O!! Wrong Number!! i think both versions are pretty good... i dunno when JLS recorded this.. i guess before X Factor as they were known as UFO when they sang this... so its likely they actually sang this before DBSK even released this!
Wrong Number is written by a music production company "Phrased Differently"; actually several DBSK songs have been written by them! its likely both JLS and DBSK have no idea they have been singing the same song!

Next one! i was looking at videos by Thanh Bui.. a Australian viet dude..anyway he was in a boy band called north,and he and his band mate composed this song.. picture of you



which is on the mirotic album... honestly.. i prefer the DBSK version =P... Junsu wrote the lyrics for the DBSK version.

its late i should go..

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My crap came in the post today!!



My Necklaces From EBAY!
cheaps... all 3 necklaces at P&P came to just over £10

Then the thing im most excited about... my MANGLAZE!! Matte Nail Varnish!!

^__^.. they only have 2 shades "The Death Tar" and "Fuggen Ugly".. i got both~~

Gwah! i loved opening this.. cos it came with those polystyrene peanut things... which honestly wasnt really needed.. but there cool to add. and we got 2 man glaze stickers!! and 3 business cards!!





ones grey and the other black

the brand is actually for aimed towards men.. hence the name.. and the lack of choice in colour...

havent tested the grey one out... i'll do some swatches later~~~

Gwey!! so excited!! ^__^!!

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*sigh*.. been too lazy to blog recently... just changed the colour of my blog, whiteness~~~... cos i like my technology white~~~ but if i had to choose between the black or white iPhone 3GS.... i would have to go for black -__-"~~ theres been incidences where it over heats and leaves brown burn marks on the white cover.. which probs happens with the black.. but u cant see the marks on the black one!... anyway.. in conclusion... i will never get an iphone no matter how white it is... its over rated and gimmicky... and im not a fan of touch screen phones.. txting takes ages.. and the screens gets greasy~~

anyway!

what have i been up to recently..

there was Jocelines bday party at pad thai... i was the oldest one there -__-".. she turned 16~~

there was our school thingy... we went to sarahs first to make waffles!.. there was vicky, sarah,nandi,rachel and ichi! gahhh going back to school is so weird.. though it didnt feel like we where gone that long!.. i kept avoiding teachers! its weird!... yeah.. i dont really care about the other people in our year =P

the next day was happy potter day! where me, sarah, ichi and vicky were meant to go watch harry potter.. though the latter 2 dropped out!!.. so it was just me and sarah!
hmm... this film was.. hmm... well.. snape managed to wash his hair all the way through the movie... it wasnt greasy at all!!... dumbledore dies.. =(... i feel that emma watson is still a terrible actress... she still looks like she was to burst out crying half the time... the whole harry and ginny thing is so awkward.. =S... JK Rowling shouldnt write romance.. never liked that pairing.. cos it never felt right!.... oh and the film is called the HP and the Half Blood prince... the half blood prince was mentioned like.. 3 times in the whole film! first when harry gets his potions books... 2nd when harry is told he should get rid of it.. then when harry finds out snape is the half blood prince!.... so yeah.. in that sense.. the film sucks... it concentrated too much on the horny teens rather than on the actual story
so after the movie we met up with ichi and vicky again and went to my house to bake japanese cheesecake. sarah and ichi left before it finished bakingggggggg. anyway vicky stayed over cos we had to get up early to catch our flight to dublinnnnnnnn. we had to get up at 5am.. but we got to sleep at like..2/3 am =P... yeah i practically slept through our first day in ireland.
im too lazy to blog about ireland... i might do it in a separate post.

got back from ireland monday night... done very little since then...

went out for "cocktail thursdays".. which only my and vicky really participate in... kevin and xavier came toooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo... we ordered a pitcher of strawberry woo woo!!.. we are gonna work through that cocktail menu!... vicky went red after half a glass =P

anyway.. i dont wanna write anymore...

and omg! stop overfeeding my fish!!

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yesterday was the jaeho wedding anniversary!! and the current views for that video is 9,000 on YT!! we have to celebrate when it reaches 10,000!!

so i recent discovered the "insight" thingy on YT where u can see statistics about ur videos, so here are the interesting stats on our video!



if u can see... alot of our views are from the US (to be exact most of the views within the US are from California), Japan, Vietnam and Thailand. we've actually had views from all over the place! not many from south korea though... none from north korea..which doesnt surprise me.. not many from china either. we've had views from all over the world, even saudi arabia! how random is that!?... obviously.. the whole world loves jaeho and DBSK!

90% of our views are from females.. which doesnt surprise me... and in the age range of 13-17.. OMG! we dont even belong in that age range anymore!!.. old old old -__-"

so yday we went out to celebrate vickys birthday and the 2nd jaeho anniversary. It was me, vicky, mohan, ramj, ichi AND THE FOXATRON!! (in a suit =P).. we went to the AMC to watch BLOOD: The Last Vampire... lots of killing vampires and blood. =P.. ichi spent alot of time hiding =P. ramj and mohan had to leave while we were at tescos~~ had to go to temple~~ then we met Nandi in tescos! ( not randomly.. we told her to meet us there =P).. then off to pigeon park to eatttttttt.... ate what must have been 2 third of a cake that serves 15 people..between 4!..(nandi has given up chocolate =O!!).. we ate..sat around.. and attempted to feed the pigeons fake tescos red bull soaked breadsticks. nandi had to leave... then the remaining 4 of us went to the photo sticker place!! yey!! then ichi and foxatron left!
so it was me and vicky left! again!! yeah.. vicky wanted green tea.. so we went to wagamamas cos u can get green tea for free if u order stuff... so we just ordered gyoza, miso soup and rice... though we weren't that hungry since that picnic was very filling!.. anyway the waiter came round with a chicken katsu curry.. which we didnt order...though they thought we did... so in the end .. we got it for freeeeeeeeeeeeee.. YEY!! FREE CURRY!!.. it would've been better if we were actually hungry.. we were already struggling to finish our side orders!!.. so asked then to bag if up so we could take it home ^_^

so off to the cocktail bar! only had one each! i had a appletini!! like JD in scrubs!! and vicky had a something snowball... i forgot the name.. Scandinavian snowball?..o_O?.. vickys face went red =P

so it was a good day!! even though u all deserted us.. or didnt turn up at all... dont u all feel REALLY GUILTY!!?? O_O!!

hope to see u all soon~~

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I PASSED!!

ALL MY MODULES!!

IM SO HAPPY!!

yeah so i got from laurence this morning saying the results are out! and he passed too ^_^

i felt like i wanted to throw up when i read that! i was shaking as i waited for my computer to load up!

*sigh* but im so glad i know them now!! dont need to worry about them anymore ^_^!!

its kinna depressing that my marks for my chem and maths modules are all higher than my physics modules -__-".. and that my highest mark is in mandarin! though to be fair the free standing modules are easy!

ahhh~~ its like a weight has been lifted! two days ago i was thinking i should revise integration cos i was scared i was gonna have to re-take that exam!

^_^~~~~~

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so its vickys 19th birthday today!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! you're so old!!!

*sigh* i dont know what to blog about now...

havent been up to much..
finally set up the wireless internet.. again... we thought there was something wrong with the router so we spent most of saturday looking for a cheap one.. gave up.. and then i tried to set up the old router.. AND NOW IT WORKS!! yeys!! ^___^~~ can surf the net in any room i want now~~~

hmm... just noticed.. i have paint in my hair..i was spray painting chairs earlier...

hmmm... its been almost 3 weeks since i got back.... and still almost every dream i've had, the PPPPPP were in it!... probs cos there the last bunch of people i hung out with before i left.... kinna missing everyone...

*sigh*.. ive actually been feeling really...bleh... since last thursday actually...

omg still havent got my results yet!! still dont know a date yet!!.. *sigh*.. i wanna knowwwwwwwwwwwwwww

ttyl~~

26~~...maybe..=P

It's my friends' birthday today... i dunno how old he's turning cos he wont tell us... but im guessing 26!...also found out that its my other friends birthday tomorrow!..i think he should be turning 20

*sigh*..

i have 3 months to waste... i really should be trying to find something to do... actually i really should be looking for a job!... my first payment of rent is on the 1st july... £510 will leave my account! i only had at least £200 in there... but then my mum gave me another £300 ^_^..(her debt to me has cleared~~)...so basically i will be spending minus money through the summer (yey! no-interest overdraft!)....(i have money stashed away somewhere for my trip to Ireland =P)

i really should start applying for my student loan again... but i cant!! not until i get my results! when i'll know that i will definitely be on my course! grr...

i havent done much these past few days... but i havent spent hours being bored... somehow learnt how to keep myself pre-occupied~~...today....well..some of you may be aware.. me and my wardrobe aren't the best of friends... i DONT HAVE ANY THING TO WEAR!!ok....thats lies.... but..i dont know what to wear...like..i dunno if the outfit is appropriate for the occasion or i'll stand out too much....u know what?!...i think i should just wear exactly what i want no matter what the occasion is! that would solve everything~~~... so be prepared if i end up looking totally out of place~~ SO ANYWAY! basically i kinna got annoyed and cut up..very slightly...one of my t-shirts...ok.. thats like nothing.. during easter i shredded half a t-shirt.. but havent had the guts to wear it out yet....

ok..i run out things i want to say... for now..

so im gonna show u some recent piccys!..since i finally have my camera back!



this is Barry.. the dog i won at barry island ^_^



the pikachu cushion my sister and mum made for my birthday ^_^~~



the watch me and vicky both brought while at oxford ^_^..same one worn my korean popstars! =P...yeah i took ths pic today~~




on saturday me and my sister made curry!! from a pack i brought ages ago, but never bothered to makeeeee~~ it was really yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmy ^__^~~

im gonna stop typing now!

byes~~

OH!!

IM ON WELSH TV!! if u remember form a few posts back... i found the episode!!

basically look for the tall guy with puffy hair in the audience on the right side.... and im the black haired thing STANDING next to him...im not sitting down!..like my sister thought... he's really that tall!


Bwrw'r Bar ~clicky~

theres subtitles for those who dont understand welsh =P.. click on the owl~~

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*sigh* so im finally back in Birmingham... left Cardiff on the 13th... IM NEVER GONNA BE LIVING AT UNIVERSITY HALL EVER!! despite living miles away from the the uni.. and being in the middle of nowhere.. im gonna miss living there....

having a sink in my own room....
getting to ride the bus and seeing peoples on the journey....
always having loads of people around...

anyway next year is gonna be so much better! so excited!! ^_^!!

so my dad and sister came to pick me up! and my sister wanted to go to the seaside, so we ended up going to Barry Island! which isnt really an island.... always see the train going to barry Island when walking to the physics building but never went there. The Weather was nice and sunny!! great seaside weather! omg! i went on one the the claw machines.. first time... i caught something!! A WHITE PUPPY DOG TOY! i named him barry! ^_^! so proud of myself!! ^_^

sunday... didnt do much... but tried to unpack... well.. not really.. i just got rid of crap i already had in my room... so much stuff -__-".. only just today put pretty much all my clothes in my wardrobe~~~

MONDAY!! was me and vicky's trip to OXFORD!! to visit ICHI!! wahhh so we got the coach... oh before that we went to sing fat.. and got sake..mochi..and really random toast which is realllllllllllllllllly tasty! ^_^! so we got to oxford sometime before 1, met ichi at the coach station!.. right after that we went to ichis college to drop off our stuff. her room is bigger than mine! and she has more tables! yeah so after dropping stuff off we wondered around the shops.. which wasnt very far...basically anywhere u are in oxford ur either next to a university building or a shop/cafe/restaurant or..possibly a park or river.
it was someones birthday so a bunch of us ordered pizza! it was kinna "student" party... from what i remember it was just people sitting around in the common room waiting or eating pizza. THERE WAS NO ALCOHOL! ... im not an alcoholic... but it was a STUDENT "party"... theres always alcohol...i've come accustomed to there being alcohol whenever theres a gathering of students~~~
oh! around 9-ish we popped out to G&D's for icecream! so good!! ^_^~~~
stayed up till around 1-ish.... i was sleepy alllllllllll day... dunno why.. =S...

Tuesday!!
we got to go punting in the morning! so scared we were gonna fall into the river at first but it was fine!! the weather was so good too!!... we all took turns in punting.. hard work work, but so fun!.. need to practise on steering! kept going towards the bank!
after that we took a break, then went to the gardens?.. cant remember the name now... but we walked around and saw COWS!! ahh so sunny...
then we got back to ichis to get our stuff got to the coach station and saw our coach leaving!! silly coach! left before it was meant to leave!!... oh well.. we took the next one at 4...

go back to birmingham sometime before 6, and kevin was at the coach station! waiting for vicky.. cos shes has a jap class at 6:30... which i decided to join too =P
so i turned up at vickys last jap class for this term... yuki sensei didnt mind ^_^~~.... they were doing nai form... i had no idea O_O~~... oh well =P oh sarah was there too!!

so i got home around...9:30... my parents dont care when i get home... nah.. i think really their respecting my freedom...since im technically an adult =P

so yeys! so fun!

OH YEAH! I GOT DRUNK LAST TUESDAY (9TH JUNE)... AT MY FRIENDS BDAY PARTY... FIRST TIME EVER!! SO FUN ^_^~~~